Call me weird, but I liek this weather. It makes me want to curl up with a good book, and frankly, i liek driving in it. The only thing I'm not so crazy about it this gloominess. I know..I know..you all think I need my head examined.

Start at the chiropracter this week. he's very into homeopathic stuff. He's not a neck cracker. he does ultrasound, massage, stuff liek that. I got to lay on this crazy water massage bed for 20 minutes today. I think I fell asleep a few times. He also has me on these nutso vitamins that I'm taking for the fuck of it. Why not. At this point,  I'll try naything.

i hate living at home. I honestly don't liek being here anymore. It doesn't mean I don't love my family. I absolutely do. But I honestly think they are driving me crazy. I don't like being here at all. It's so fuckin loud here all the time...too many goddamn people. It's noon, and there are 4 peopel at home right now. All i want is some fucking peace and quiet right now. I can't go anywhere without telling my parents where I'm going, and I am to tell the mwhen i get home regardless of what time it is. If it's late at night they will say "you're not oging somewhere", and they have somethign ot fuckin say about everything. My mom is giving me shit about taking these vitmains. I absolutely detest being here. HATE IT

Ah yes, the Yankees. I went to the game last night at Yankee Stadium. What a fucking embarassment for Yankee fans. I was in my glory. All those shit-talking, jeering NY assholes were awfully quiet at the top of the 8th. The one's that even stayed...that is. The place was EMPTY. We ended up moving close enough that my father saw us on tv. 3 really really stupid embarassing errors. I loved every minute of it.

I got the OK to go back to work. Put a call in to my boss today to have her call me back....I just need to find out if I have to go back thorugh training again after being off for so long.

I feel liek I had somethign else to write about. Shit what was it? OH OH I KNOW! Fuckin disgraceful. We had noticed last week some flyer bundled up and at the end of all the driveways. Heatehr threw ours out - it looked lie ka politcal flyer. We ended uyp hearing on the news later, however, that it was osmething different. Apparently some bigoted asshole printed up awhole flyer about how the jews need to be exterminated and killed (yes Joe..i know those mean the same thing)..and about the history of the Jews and why they suck..etc..etc..and placed them strategically in certain neighborhoods in West Hartford. What is this fucking world coming to?

So i have to admit..I kinda feel like I'm encroaching on Ness's space here by posting my photos that aren't even very good. But i ventured out in the rain today (it's cold as hell by the way) and took some more photos. I really need some more stuff though - some of these would have been decent if it weren't for the massive droplet that landed on my camera as I took the photo. Awesome.

Anyway, I digress. here's what I got today. Nothign great, but hey..it's a blog.

I am currently playing with photoshop to figure out how to make my B & W's a lil better. They are sorta "blah". Anyway..that's all I have for today.

Finally breaking in the camera...

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http://s27.photobucket.com/albums/c171/xTinypig4Lifex/elizabeth%20park/?start=0

I am starting to think "the red barren" is a myth my parents keep telling me so I don't get depressed and cry. This car has been "almost ready" for like 4 days. Apparently a lot of things were done to it..and then it has to go through inspections, and emissions, and then they have to go to Motor Vehicales...etc..etc..*snore*snore* me my car you dirty little panty elves. It's not a nice car. I just want it for the principle of it. To have a car. Finally. b

I am trying t owake up. Ya know what would help? A cup of coffee. Ooohh wait. Nevermind.

Bryan and I cleaned his office for 7 hours yesterday. It's really starting ot shape up and come together. I was proud of him - I don't know many guys who will clean for 7 hours straight without complaining. I was pretty shocked, I'm not gonna lie. But it looks great! It's really coming along....!! I think the margaritas we were p[oundign helped, but hey..whatever works.

Today is my day of beauty. If Courtney's rolls out of bed soon, we are going to get our eyebrows waxed (her treat. She has a gift certificate so she said if I went with her, she'd treat me. Who am I to pass up a good hair rippin'?) Gettin' my hair highlighted today. Never had this place do my hair before. I'm slightly scared, highly intrigued. I woke up early again today. What the hell? I looked at the clock at it was 6:30. Fuckin a, folks. Fuckin a. It's a wee bit chilly out today. Gone is the fantabulous weather from last week *sigh*. On the bright side of things, I think the lump is getting smaller. It's amazing what buying the right vitmain can do (I am soooo brilliant). It's 8 am. I'm bored out of my skull. I wish I was sleeping. Or working. Or doing something.

I'm kinda spent. I feel liek Im running on fumes. Mayebn I need a vacation. I know I don't have a hectic work schedule or anything..but I think I am desperately in need of a chanfge of scenery. A little rejuvination of the mind, body, and soul. i have eralized that "happiness" is relative. I have been in a bit of a slump lately..no car...no life...no money. God i have no fuckign money. But then I think "Natanis has no home Meghan, shut the fuck up" and i quiet myself a little. I still can't sit in class all day without being in pain. Im sore as fuck right now. So lame. I am exhausted. I wonder if the vitamin E is making me tired. I read it can cause fatigue. I get "the red barron" on Wednesay,  as Bryan named it. They're just throwing some new front brakes on, some new stabilizer thiniges (whatever those do...)  and a few other doo-dads, run it thorugh emissions, and bam, Im good to go. Watch te thing not pass emissions. I think I'll jump off a fuckin cliff holding a 200 lb. weight. My friend's family is having a party at their beach house for Memorial Day. ppparently it's being catered. He can only have one guest. he in vited me. I seriously feel honored. I met him down at that beach actually, when we were 13 yrs old. We losy contact and started speaking about a year ago. I had been a "renter" and we stopped renting..they were "owners" so they kept on going. Their new beach house is nothgn short of fabulous. Holy frickin God i can't even do it justice if i try to explain it. Just imagine a great place right on the water with a huge fuckin long porch overlooking the water with 2 wine/beer fridges and a fantabulous rest of the house as well. That beach is my sanity. I go down to Old Saybrook and I feel this serious inner peace. I lvoe it. I feel that way at any beach..but that place especially. It represents all that is good to mr. So many memories from down there...when we were all so yougn and naive, before life had bitchslapped us all in the face.  I can't wait.

- Side note - I am finalyl getting my hair highlighted. Long live credit cards!

Well, as some of you know..i did a photoshoot thingie for Aaron. My pictures are officially up, for those that want to pretend to be interested. Some of them are fantastic. Others make me look lie kI am trying to bite someone. Still others make  me look lie kI fear getting shit on by a pigeon, and others still have me lookign lie kI need my next crack fix. However, there are some that I am so nbeyond pleased with - I think he did a fantabulous job with photoshopping. Amnyway..here they are!

http://gallery.thebailiwick.com/meghan

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