Snickerdoodle

I'm kinda spent. I feel liek Im running on fumes. Mayebn I need a vacation. I know I don't have a hectic work schedule or anything..but I think I am desperately in need of a chanfge of scenery. A little rejuvination of the mind, body, and soul. i have eralized that "happiness" is relative. I have been in a bit of a slump lately..no car...no life...no money. God i have no fuckign money. But then I think "Natanis has no home Meghan, shut the fuck up" and i quiet myself a little. I still can't sit in class all day without being in pain. Im sore as fuck right now. So lame. I am exhausted. I wonder if the vitamin E is making me tired. I read it can cause fatigue. I get "the red barron" on Wednesay,  as Bryan named it. They're just throwing some new front brakes on, some new stabilizer thiniges (whatever those do...)  and a few other doo-dads, run it thorugh emissions, and bam, Im good to go. Watch te thing not pass emissions. I think I'll jump off a fuckin cliff holding a 200 lb. weight. My friend's family is having a party at their beach house for Memorial Day. ppparently it's being catered. He can only have one guest. he in vited me. I seriously feel honored. I met him down at that beach actually, when we were 13 yrs old. We losy contact and started speaking about a year ago. I had been a "renter" and we stopped renting..they were "owners" so they kept on going. Their new beach house is nothgn short of fabulous. Holy frickin God i can't even do it justice if i try to explain it. Just imagine a great place right on the water with a huge fuckin long porch overlooking the water with 2 wine/beer fridges and a fantabulous rest of the house as well. That beach is my sanity. I go down to Old Saybrook and I feel this serious inner peace. I lvoe it. I feel that way at any beach..but that place especially. It represents all that is good to mr. So many memories from down there...when we were all so yougn and naive, before life had bitchslapped us all in the face.  I can't wait.

- Side note - I am finalyl getting my hair highlighted. Long live credit cards!