pure random

So the concert was fantastic. Naturally, a guy from the tour took the 2 next to us and put them in the front row as Larry and I sat there openmouthed for a good half hour. Stellar show though  almost surreal. What was also surreal was watching all the gusy I'm sued to drinkign with and talkign to climb ladders and shit, knowing I'll probably never chill with them again. Frankly, I'm pretty fuckin sick of hearing about how upset Bryan is. Bryan caused his own sadness by acting impulsively. I lvole him dearly, I miss him terribly, but he caused this. he can't do this shit and think he can just take it back. It doesn't work that way. besides, he has my friggin phone number, last I checked...he can call me. If he is so devestated, would he not be callign em sayign "I made a mistake, lets try again?" I would think so. So he obviously can't be THAT freakin upset. He'd be calling me sayign "I can't do this. I made a mistake, I love you". Maybe he never loved me? Who the hell knows. O miss him like crazy....but he needs to decide what he wants on his own..and for now, I'll be around......hopefully, if he IS going to change his mind..he doesn't witto long. Eventually I'll begin ot move on, and it owuld be that much harder a decision then. Who the fuck knows. I dont wanna go to PT. This blog is random. Why am I blogging about this? Nother profound really..just useless babble that keeps me from ahving to do school work. Joe, my sister mowed the lawn the other day - i couldnt. I was sad, but i thought of you.