If I'm lucky I'll blow away

When I don't sleep, it's a disaster waiting to happen. I get more emotional, I get irrational, aomngst other things. I got 2 hours sleep last night. I just finished a book about a woman who's husband was having an affair with another woman and led a completely secret life that she had no idea about. She finds this out after he dies in a plane crash so she cant even beat him senseless. Awesome. Just the book for me. My two fears - dying in a plane crash and being cheated on wrapped in to one book. .......and I'm tired. This day is a friggin disaster waiting to happen. I have to be careful though. Bryan ha been so sweat. I don't want to let me exhaustion lead me to say/do something stupid. That'd be highly dumb on my part and would only be annoying to him. I'm supposed to go to the gym with my sister in an hour. I sreally don't want to go. I'm so tired, have a doc appointment today, and have a shitload to do for school before I meet with my group at 5:30 tonight. I'll go anyway though, I suppose. It's windy out. It's very cool. I love this shit. I should go eat some carbs for energy. But I'm tired and edgy so I have absolutely no appetite. I should nap today. No time though. I sure as hell shouldn't talk to Bryan right now or I'll say something dumb. Maybe I'll have some oatmeal. There are only 3 people including myself on B4M. Where is everyone? It's 9:37 am! I should go now.